Filling in the Blanks

It’s been quiet on the blog lately and for that I’m sorry.  We are ready to share what has been happening over the last few weeks.  After my IVF transfer, we had to wait about 10 days for our first hCG test.  In the trying-to-conceive community this is referred to as the TWW or two week wait.  After reading other people’s journeys, I was expecting it to be the toughest, longest ten days of my life.  It wasn’t.  After the transfer, I was in a pretty good place.  I listened to happy music, watched funny movies and tried to laugh as much as possible (some study shows that IVF clowns increase implementation rates – but since I hate clowns, and a lot of people do, they recommend comedies).  The day after the transfer I began to feel my embryos implanting.  I’m sure this is all in my head, but I felt twinges on both sides of my uterus.  I just knew that meant both babies were making their homes.  Over the next few days I felt similar pains, had no signs of an impending period and stayed away from any physical activity.  There was one exception – at work, I was told to inter-office our new class brochures to each department/office that needed them.  When all was said and done it was in two large boxes that were fairly heavy.  I had told my boss via email I would need help getting them down the hall for the mailroom to pick up since I was not supposed to be lifting, pushing, pulling or twisting at all.  She came out and told me to send them and she walked away.  In my anger, I attempted to push the boxes with my feet down the hallway.  It was more of a workout than I had anticipated and my co-workers were mad at me for not just asking them.  I was sure this was going to cause me to miscarry.  I was still days away from my hCG test though so I just had to keep on going.

On Friday, August 22nd, I went into the doctors office first thing in the morning for my first hCG test.  I was a bundle of nerves and my stomach was in knots.  The nurse who took my blood asked me if I had cheated, threatening to rat me out to my regular nurse if I had.  I hadn’t cheated by taking a test at home.  I wasn’t prepared for a negative home pregnancy test so I avoided it.  I didn’t expect to hear from nurse until somewhere between 11:30 and 1 when she usually calls me with blood work results.  So while I was walking Hazel in our development I was surprised to hear my phone ring at 9:30 am.  When I answered, my nurse asked me if I had cheated and I told her no.  The words that followed have changed my life.  She began with, “Then, I don’t know how to tell you this…”  In that instant, my heart sank.  I had been so confident.  And then I heard, “but you’re PREGNANT.”  I broke down in the middle of the parking lot next to my house.  Whatever else she said to me was a blur.  She had told me my hCG level and I don’t remember what she said.  All I remember is we needed a number of about 331 to indicate a normal pregnancy when I returned in two days.  Two days later I received a similar phone call and my levels had increased by more than the projected 66%.  I was scheduled for my first ultrasound on 8/31.

That morning we went in for the first ultrasound and a retest of my hCG and progesterone levels.  They found two sacks.  Baby A was measuring right at 5 weeks while Baby B was one day behind.  At my second ultrasound on 9/10 Baby A was measuring 6 weeks, 4 days and Baby B was now lagging 3 days behind.  We did see two heartbeats.  The doctor was concerned about Baby B and prepared me for the worst.  The following Sunday night I had some spotting after taking my third dose of progesterone late (I typically do it at 9:30 and it was about 11:30).  I panicked and called the answering service and was put through to the doctor on call.  She assured me that this can be completely normal for my stage of pregnancy and it’s especially common for twin pregnancies and just to try and relax until my next ultrasound.  If something was going to go wrong, we wouldn’t be able to stop it.  On 9/16 I went in for my third ultrasound.  I was SO nervous.  They took all the regular measurements and then went on to measure Baby A, who was at 7 weeks, 1 day (10.37mm) and then Baby B and when they said the measurements, I literally jumped out of shock.  10.62mm or 7 weeks, 1 day.  Both heartbeats were strong!  How lucky was I that both babies were still there?

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I’m currently only 8 weeks and 3 days pregnant but we didn’t want to keep it a secret any longer.  We still have  a long road ahead of us, but we won’t be going through it alone.  My next and final appointment with my RE is tomorrow morning.  The following week I have my first appointment with my OB’s office.  My biggest fear is that once I stop taking progesterone, that I could risk losing the babies.  There will be no way to prevent that.  All I can do is hope and pray.

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14 thoughts on “Filling in the Blanks

  1. Pregnant cousins! All my love and stickness to you and your babies! Feel free to reach out if you need anything; I’m leighannerethage at gmail dot com if you ever want to vent to someone from afar (the distance often helps during difficult times). I’ve been waiting to hear this blessed news as I’m sure you have as well! <3's always.

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  2. I’m sitting here with tears running down my cheeks! Congratulations!! It is so crazy how in the blogging world, mainly in the infertility world, you don’t actually know each other but can feel so close and so happy for each other (and sad at times too). I am thrilled to read this news for you. I am hoping and praying for you and your babies! I hope to post a similar story in the near future…such a happy day! Congratulations again!

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      1. Hey Kristin! Got that BFP and just found out I am having identical twins today! I was thinking of you and wanted to ask you when you really started showing. I’m 7 weeks exactly today. I went back to look and see at 8 weeks you were showing quite a bit. I might need to let the cat out of the bag pretty soon at work or my body may do it for me. Do you have any tips for twin pregnancy, maternity fashion, etc??? I hope you are doing well and those babies are hanging in there and getting cozy for a little while longer!

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  3. Ahhhh!!! That’s so great! Congratulations. I wish you and the babies all the best. I was wearing maternity pants before I was even pregnant because ivf meds made me really bloated. I should do a post on this but as far as maternity clothes go, I bought a ton. If I were doing it again I wouldn’t buy a single pair of ‘full belly’ or ‘over the belly’ pants. I thought they would give me way more support but they actually gave me less and would slowly slide down as I walked around. Gap maternity leggings are the shit! Any pants I bought I went a size up from what I normally wore. Towards the end of this pregnancy I’m kind of over the super curve hugging clothes and showing off my bump. I’m not living in leggings and my husbands old tshirts. Get a comfortable pair of flats. Switch to maternity pants asap because they are so much more comfy than trying to squeeze into normal pants with a belly band. Look for good books on twins and twin pregnancy and any apps you can find. Look into healthy diet options. You need extra calories and should make sure you get enough protein and iron. Cut out soda (if that’s your thing) and caffeine. Start doing research on gear to make your life easier and what you really need two of (car seats, cribs) vs what you can get away with one of. I looked for stylish items that were still reasonably priced (ikea, diapers.com, target and amazon). Find some other twin blogs, I really like http://www.nestingstory.ca. Start shopping early to spread out expenses and since twin pregnancies are unpredictable.
    I am SO excited for you and can’t wait to hear more about your journey!

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